Holiday Melancholy
So I have been toying with the idea of writing this because the holidays are supposed to be about being happy and being with family. I am very happy in general. I enjoy being with my family, correction, I love being with my family. My family and I are very close but lately as we get older and I watch my little cousins grow I feel a sense of loss, almost an emptiness. At the beginning of the year Ron and I had decided to not pursue children in this time of our lives however getting into the holiday season I feel that urge. I feel the need to be around children. I love children, I love helping them, teaching them, and watching them grow into amazing human beings. I have been lucky to be a part of my “nephews'” lives and they are growing into amazing men. Their mother is like a sister to me even though we're cousins. I feel pride in their accomplishments as if they were my own kids because that's how much I love them. Ron and I love spending time with those kids but th...