World of Weightcraft

     Went on a hike today for the first time in over a month. As you all know its been a rough few months here but I'm getting back into the swing of things. I've made my 3 rd hiking diary even though technically it's my 4 th one. The 3 rd one was made but the footage was poor so I scrapped it. I'm trying to get back into hiking regularly, its hard when you have one car and your husband uses it for work. So my goal is to have the car at least once a week and I just drive him into work then I go hike somewhere since it'll be early enough that not many people will be out plus it'll be cooler in the mornings.      So things I noticed on the trail today that bugged the hell out of me: people that talk on their phone while working out bother me. I realize this is a personal pet peeve but seriously when you go hiking and you're hiking a mountain why are you on the phone? I counted 4 people talking on their phones and one child playing on one while hikin...

     My best friend is dead. It has been 1 month since she left this world. My life has been a wreck since she died and it hasn't gotten any easier now that she's gone. I'm so thankful she's no longer suffering but I don't understand why I'm still in pain. I know we all grieve in our own way but I'm so tired of crying, I'm so tired of being sad, I'm so tired of trying to move forward with my life and not being able to. I struggle every single day trying to do anything some days are better than others. I fake to everyone that I'm fine but in reality I am having thoughts of suicide. I feel myself withdraw more and more everyday. I find myself upset when I get no attention from people but frustrated when they do give me attention. I want to be alone and with everyone at the same time.      These feelings of needing constant attention and wanting to push people away makes me want to just quit but I know that's the worst thing I could do wit...