World of Weightcraft

     Wow so its finally the end of the year and we are bringing 2016 to a close, what a shitty year. I mean this whole heartedly. There have been some good points to the year, I’ve made some amazing friends and met some amazing people. I have 3 podcasts that I enjoy doing so much; however, the journey has been a really tough one. So much death, so much hurt, so much pain, but also so much growth. I guess I should start at the beginning.      As you know my best friend died in April. This was not the only death I endured this year. On July 1st my uncle died. He was a quiet man but he was a good one, he worked hard and loved his family dearly. He was always a huge quiet presence in my life and I loved him. He will be missed. One month later my grandmother died August 2nd. This woman I could go on for days about how much she meant to me; I’m tearing up writing about her. She suffered from Parkinson’s disease and in the later years the family took it upon ...

     Went on a hike today for the first time in over a month. As you all know its been a rough few months here but I'm getting back into the swing of things. I've made my 3 rd hiking diary even though technically it's my 4 th one. The 3 rd one was made but the footage was poor so I scrapped it. I'm trying to get back into hiking regularly, its hard when you have one car and your husband uses it for work. So my goal is to have the car at least once a week and I just drive him into work then I go hike somewhere since it'll be early enough that not many people will be out plus it'll be cooler in the mornings.      So things I noticed on the trail today that bugged the hell out of me: people that talk on their phone while working out bother me. I realize this is a personal pet peeve but seriously when you go hiking and you're hiking a mountain why are you on the phone? I counted 4 people talking on their phones and one child playing on one while hikin...

     My best friend is dead. It has been 1 month since she left this world. My life has been a wreck since she died and it hasn't gotten any easier now that she's gone. I'm so thankful she's no longer suffering but I don't understand why I'm still in pain. I know we all grieve in our own way but I'm so tired of crying, I'm so tired of being sad, I'm so tired of trying to move forward with my life and not being able to. I struggle every single day trying to do anything some days are better than others. I fake to everyone that I'm fine but in reality I am having thoughts of suicide. I feel myself withdraw more and more everyday. I find myself upset when I get no attention from people but frustrated when they do give me attention. I want to be alone and with everyone at the same time.      These feelings of needing constant attention and wanting to push people away makes me want to just quit but I know that's the worst thing I could do wit...

   I wrote this letter about a month ago and have been debating whether or not to post it. I wrote for fear that I would not get to see my best friend before she left this world. Last Tuesday she asked me over to say our final goodbyes. I had the opportunity to give her some semblance of normality again and I know that's what she needed. Now its just a waiting game, I haven't received any news as of late but I know she's still holding on. When I wrote this letter I was so afraid I'd never get to tell her how much she means to me but I was able to and I'm so thankful for those little moments but I still don't feel it is enough so I'm leaving this letter here for the world to see how much this one person means to me and to get a little understanding of what they're going to miss when she's gone. Vita,    You are by far the most beautiful person I have been blessed to meet. You truly taught me what love is. You taught me what a real friendship i...

   Today I went and got my fourth tattoo. All of my tattoos have meaning to them I don't just get a tattoo for the fun of it, I love artwork so when I decide to place it on my body I want it to not only be beautiful but to have a reason to be there. This is my body and I want it to reflect those things that are important to me. My favorite piece is my shoulder tattoo by Charles from Only You Tattoo. He's a great artist and you give him an idea of what you want and he just creates a masterpiece. Here is a photo from the first beautiful piece he did. I got it after I got married and it is for my marriage. Our wedding flower was the magnolia and he did a wonderful job, its definitely my favorite piece because it means so much. My second piece is actually in juxtaposition of this one but no less beautiful. See, for the past few months I've only spoken of this to some people and I've only spoken at length to an even smaller selection of those people. I haven...

Hello all I hope life is finding you well. It seems spring is just around the corner at least here that’s how it feels! Today is super Tuesday and I’m not going to tell you who to vote for but you should go vote because if more people vote then things can change. If we only have 1/3 of our population voting then the people are not truly being presented so GO VOTE! Ok I’m done. Today I come to you with a new recipe!! I know its been a long time but I’ve been trying to come up with new stuff that I really liked enough to put online. This I’m proud of, it took me a couple of times to get it the way I enjoyed it even though its a simple recipe. I’m bringing to you today my recipe for mini quiche. We found ourselves trying to come up with breakfast foods that we could take on the go because Ron gets up so early in the morning and he doesn't want to have boiled eggs all the time for breakfast and of course can’t do biscuits. So, I thought to myself what is in a biscuit? Well, usuall...

   Currently I am sitting here with a really light head, upset stomach, and not much of an appetite. So far my weekend has been spent getting over the stomach flu. It isn't fun. Your marriage will truly be tested when your spouse gets a stomach flu because really gross stuff happens and you have to decide is it worth it to take care of this person? Ron got sick before me and it wasn't pretty. I couldn't do anything for him and then stuff got gross and I had to either clean it up or just go “nope, screw it I'm done”. I cleaned it up. Why? Because I love him and it sucks when you're sick and I wanted to make him as comfortable as I could and part of that is cleaning up whatever mess is made. Unfortunately for him, he had to turn around and do the same for me 3 days later. Lets just say this stomach flu is not pretty.    Moving on, I had an epiphany this week, before I got sick. I got to that point where I gave up on eating healthy and I knew I was gaining weigh...

Ok so I didn't actually pee in the woods today but I did the last time I went hiking which was a couple of weeks ago. I had to pee so badly and when you're hiking there aren't restrooms so I stepped off the trail into an area that had a group of trees and concealed myself as best I could and peed. I had a towel that I could wipe myself with and then went along my way. It was weird but walking the AT I'm gonna have to get used to doing more than that in the woods. Let's actually take a moment to discuss that because as a new person to hiking I am fully aware that I'll be leaving certain things in the woods but you can't just leave it there; as a hiker we want to leave no trace of ourselves which is why there is a set of principles called Leave No Trace. When I first started hiking I'd didn't know of this concept but you naturally want to keep the environment you're hiking in pristine at least that's my natural reaction. There is a reason why...

   How do you express the loss of someone that you never knew yet their life molded you? Do you cry? Do you work? Do you wear black? How do you truly express the loss of someone that you respected even though you don’t know them? I think in our lives there will always be people whom we never meet that can change our lives in the most profound of ways. Celebrities, while most of us will never meet them we look up to them, we love them, we hate them, we revere them, and we respect them. They are thrown into a light because of their talent and we hunger for that, we crave to watch someone because we enjoy being entertained. We latch on to certain people because of the characters they play or the person they represent themselves to be. When they are hurt we are hurt. When they are happy we are happy. Why do we do this? Because they shape our lives and become a part of us so much more than many admit. Someone truly talented can become a deep seated figure without us realizing it a...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! At least that's what we say at the beginning of a new year. A lot of people around this time of year are depressed because they just went through the holiday season and were either extremely high from all the excitement and happiness and now that is starting to die down and winter is setting in or they were unable to do anything for the holidays and have just had that extra time to sit and be lonely. Either way going into a new year is rough for many many people and it is really really easy to fall into that winter depression because what is the next huge commercial holiday? That's right it's Valentine's day and you all know how I feel about that particular one. The reason I bring this up is because I personally believe a lot of the problem is this whole new year's resolution bull hockey. Resolution to me is such a finite word and has developed into this pretty negative force that puts so much pressure on people therefore resulting in an awful ...